Family.

5 years into my proffessional career, no university degree or formal training, I've realized that family is probably the only thing that matters in life. I used to think I needed to be good at a job, good at labour, to be of value to those around me. With a potential future on the horizon where labour becomes meaningless, it has me realizing the importance of what I mean to those in my life.

This wonderful article brought me here.

It genuinely gives me hope that I can live a life without needing to constantly feel defensive about my skills, scared that my worth will get replaced, anxious about needing to prove why I belong somewhere. Fear, honour, and interest drive wars. They also drove how I felt about myself, and therfore my conduct and decisions in my labour.

This perspective gives me a greater appreciation for the family I have. It's comfort, it's not having to perform, it's not having to feel anxious about my future in the family. It makes me see it's the only thing in life that matters. Preserving, protecting, and advancing it.

I need to start being more thoughtfull about how I contribute to my family. I am in a rare situation with a fairly healthy family dynamic that offers me safety and security from the vast amount of hardships life has to offer. Yes there are issues, conflicts, as there are with any family on this earth. It would be ashame if there weren't anything better to strive towards.

Per aspera ad astra.